I wanted to do something different with this post. Everyone knows when you can make it to the end of the week its great. Well for me just starting a new routine can be a challenge. My mind will think of things that need to be done, than I have to figure out how to get it done, and then finally actually get it done. I decided this round to do things a little different. I was going to be organized! Like such as getting clothes cleaned and put away. That used to be a huge task. What I have done lately was separate things I needed and stored the stuff I might not wear as much or the wrong season. Boy did that help me so much! My parents would constantly remind me about staying organized. So I did everything in my power to do just that without driving anyone crazy with my personal organizing 101 lessons. This is where I jokingly say my ADD gets me in both ways. Yes I can get into perfection mode just like anyone else.
Now that it’s the day before my training starts I am feeling a little less anxious and more confident with where I can find things. I posted on Facebook that I would most likely not be posting much due to my new routine. I will though try to blog more so I can record my journey. Just haven’t decided the hows and whens yet.
So I will try to keep updating and going through comments with my head high.
Normally I don’t post, tweet, or much of that unless well I feel something needs to be said. Now that I am doing more than that gradually the knot in my stomach is healing. Insulting people is bad. I just can’t highlight, underline, or bold it enough. Please lets prove people wrong and stand up for love and equality. We don’t need anymore hatred.
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Just getting up is a great thing. Knowing I am accepted is another. Feeling the love is the way I battle my fears. Knowing people are there helps too. I used to imagine people verbally supporting me saying yes you can. Walk those steps and clean those dishes. I do it for me now. Not anyone else.
As I was reading the comments that from the last few months I felt a twinge of pride because I have been reaching so many people. I couldn’t believe how much easier it became to actually reply to them in real time. My goal for the next few months is to get respond to as many as I can. Weather it is through my posts or even my Facebook page.
To think its been a while since I did some proper posts and now I am slowly getting the hang of it again. Some will be updates, others might be shares, and even a picture or two. I just want to keep reaching people and giving them hope that yes they can live and keep living after various situations.
Have a wonderful weekend!
For the first time I am taking the steps I needed to actually do this. Between learning how to cook and bake things. To going out and talking with people in real life. These are things people do. A few weeks ago I began taking bus rides in my area. I felt so excited and nervous. It was also a milestone because that was how I traveled for many years. Walking and riding the bus in the greater Seattle area.
It has been brought to my attention by various people in my journey in life that I didn’t know how to drive. Well up until recently I was ashamed of that fact. I joke that my father felt that I shouldn’t because it took a lot of concentration to be able to keep my eye on the road and not get into an accident or anything of the sort. So from 12th grade on I practiced the art of taking the bus. It started around the White Center area where we were living when. I learned to memorize the routes and landmarks so I could get to school and home without needing too much help. I was lucky that my school was on a community college site and that one bus when back and forth in my neighborhood. This began my need to get around without asking for a ride. Sure at times I needed help but the thrill of knowing where to go and how to get there was a strong feeling. It got to the point that I was giving people advice on how to get to and from places. Now that is powerful. During my separation and into my divorce part of my life I had to learn from scratch to I could have my son ready to be picked up from our apartment area down to work and back before he got home. I started adding the taxi system at this point because it was a new area and I needed that extra confidence that things would work out.
So even though in some ways I am a little behind the curve… that didn’t mean I couldn’t make up the distance in other ways. Imagine my joy when these smart devices came out. I finally was able to get real-time information at just a click speed. So thus ends this chapter of my training life. Join me next time as we learn how I am getting back on my feet.
Until then take care of yourself so you can take care of others!
I am coming back to my online persona. I am letting Sara say things that shouldn’t be silent anymore. I was pro-disabled rights and now more than ever. I was someone that was emotionally wounded and now I am recovering. I surround myself with people who want me to achieve my goals. I am learning how to cook, bake, and genuinely love myself again. For a long time I didn’t realize who I was and wanted to be. I just wanted to keep up with my peers and others in my life.
It has taken me this long to want to be myself whatever that might be. I got to tell you starting over is tough. But one of my best liked posts was about my Training ground in my native land. Now I am in my next step trying to relearn everything I couldn’t understand in the past.
I have got to do this not only for myself… but also for my son. He is the reason I fight so hard with myself to make a difference for him and others just like him. I haven’t seen Wonder Woman yet… but trust me its on my list of must sees. I did though see Rouge One and felt empowered afterwards. Yes I can became my motto in life. Don’t give up became my mantra.
So I will keep up these online blogs to let my fans know that yes Molly/Sara is still standing.
Tis the season to take care of oneself. That is exactly what I have started doing readers. My holidays began with spending time with my friends and family. Now I am just preparing to organize myself for the New Year. I can’t explain how grateful I am to have such a great support team behind me these days. It spans all over the globe and many times over. I am just excited to see if the new year brings as much happiness into your life as much as it has mine.
So take care of yourself so you can take care of others!
Until next time,
I saw my first snow fall this afternoon. It was beautiful!
During the holidays I try to do something nice for myself. It’s not a selfish thing when I tend to not ask for anything. Yes it was the fear talking saying I didn’t deserve it.
So I took small steps by deciding what creamer to drink with my coffee. Turns out snickerdoodle was the best of two worlds. A headset that I can use to listen to music and make calls.
I would say being nice with yourself is the best gift to anyone. You can’t help others if you are not taking care of yourself. 🤗☕
Why did you stay so long?
For my son.
Why did you leave?
For my son.
I don’t know if I could have a child because of my body size and health issues. But I had this love for children that made me want to make the world better. I would the best thing that I could to make him happy. Even if it meant bettering myself so he could have a good life. I will do whatever it takes for my son.