I haven’t written a lot in the past because I wasn’t sure if I was ready to do this. I used to blog and journal a lot. Than I was afraid of being judged by my words. Well I think it is time to start writing again. It is not really for anyone specific. It is just me letting go a lot of feelings and words in my soul. See I lived in a very dark world. I was always afraid of everything. Afraid I wasn’t good enough. Wasn’t able to just be me. It took me a few months of therapy and a wonderful support group to be able to find my voice again. You see I was verbally and emotionally abused. There I said it out loud. I don’t know if this will be ever traced back to me, but I have the right to say how I feel. I used to journal so much and writing was the way I expressed myself. I just was not able to actually say what I felt. I was constantly judged. By myself and others. I know that I should check my grammar and spelling while I write things online, but just this once I am going to ignore that tip. See I am writing with what is in my soul and mind. I feel inspired to just let it all out without being afraid. So forgive me if the thoughts are in run on sentences or such. I do care about spelling though. That is one thing that I can not ignore. That plus my computer lets me know when I spelled something wrong so of course I stop what I am doing just to make sure I spelled it right.