Getting a book, blog post, message, or even email has helpped me with starting over. June was going to be my reading month. I downloaded to iBooks The Scarlet Letter, Pride and Prejudice, War and Peace, and Little Women. I knew the weather would be cold and wet which brought on winter blues. After reading Dr. Amen’s book about magnificent minds I decided to do something different. Instead of being bored and bummed I was going to make lemonade out of lemons.
I remember writing book reports and presenting it to my class. The art of reading a book and sharing it with others gave me great joy. I might start doing that on here. We shall see.
I got excited when I got a new email or message because I felt so hungry for contact with my friends. I wanted to bond over what was happening in the world. I love my family, but my support system was the thing that helped me remember who I was. They stood up to me and for me. That has been the acceptance I have yearned for all my life.
As I read other bloggers post I feel one in the community. @Thought Catalog has been one of my favorites. I love sharing their posts because it had such an effect on me. @BeautyBeyondBones is another favorite of mine. Her worlds about life after ED gives me hope as I get over my emotional wounds. Each blog I follow gives me a place to escape to.
In closing reading has been my way of coping with my current stage in life. Because I am unable to communicate with people due to my language difficulty. I run away to the world of books for a calming feeling. These classics remind me that the world was never this dark and gray. Plus how the characters deal with everyday activities teach me that life has a rainbow ending even in our darkest days.