I was a struggling mother turned blogger.


I  was in the early stages of being stay at home mom and military spouse.  I couldn’t go to mommy and me programs/meetings because I couldn’t drive.  Too scared and ashamed I took to the net searching for others.  Hoping to find some support during this time of life.

I tried Blogger and got locked out of Tumblr. So to WordPress I came with my hopes and dreams.  I wanted to find a community that didn’t judge me for being different. 

I couldn’t breast feed because the stress just couldn’t keep up.  I was ashamed that I looked at the breast pump and couldn’t get it.  Shouldn’t there be some support group for this?  I dealt with the shame of going to the hospital nurse for advice to feed my own baby.  I tried the teas to help me relax and make milk.  I even watched things to just relax.

At one point I was visiting my family and broke down crying because I felt like a bad mom.  My my mom soothed my worries by telling me I wasn’t the only person to go through this.  She advised me to to continue the breast milk and formula combination and do my best.  That was exactly what I did.

Outside of a few close people I didn’t share the ups and downs of motherhood.  Thinking I was the only one I decided to journal as much as I could remember so I could share with others hoping to find a someone that could get me. 

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