Who will tell your story?📚


My mom asked me this one day.  She encouraged me to write my thoughts out.  So in between my anxiety and depression I put the words together via my blog and journals.

Last week I discovered I had hit a milestone of 100 subscribed followers.  My heart was full of joy because that is a huge accomplishment.  I have read books about Eating Disorders, Depression, Attention Deficit Disorder, and Anxiety related to stress.  I could see myself, but not find a definite category.

It was hard to find help for my needs.  I tried not to put myself down, but at times I was very human.  My friend reminds me that I am stronger than I give myself credit for.  Who else would have put up with the challenges of a lone pregnancy.  I wish the African American in me would have said “I don’t think so…”  That was the fear of being alone and unloved.

Anxiety does that.  It makes you feel like the waste that is sent down the toilet.  It teases you making you feel like nothing.  Your not smart or worth anything it says.  Standing up to it and responding that you are worth that and more is harder than most people think.

So I am telling my story bits and pieces.  Reminding people I am not just a girl with small skills.  I am someone that is beautiful, kind, and intelligent.  I have amazing respectful manners and willing to serve when needed.

Princess👑

Happy in an unhappy world.🎧


This is based on the popular hit by Pharrell Williams.

When I finally got this song my life drastically changed.  In this world of weight shaming, bloody wars on terrorism, and negative hatred I just felt empty without any joy.  My mom would ask me why I would watch The Last Legion with its war theme.  What I saw was someone willing to fight for change and a reason.  We need a reason to keep going during these rough times.  We need leaders willing to stand up against the norms of society.  We need to let the light come out once again in this dark world.  Let the reporters do their job.  They are here to inform us without bias about what is really happening in the world.  It’s time a new generation stands up and say enough is enough.  We need more Macrons in the government.

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This is what I needed before.  Spreading the news for those who need it now.

Sara

Illustration by Daniella Urdinlaiz 1. ANXIETY IS THE MOST COMMON MENTAL DISORDER IN THE USA An estimated 40 million American adults suffer from some form of anxiety disorder—even more than those who suffer from depression. About one in every five adults and one in every ten children experiences some form of anxiety disorder. (source) 2.…

http://thoughtcatalog.com/jessica-winters/2017/05/12-things-everyone-needs-to-know-about-anxiety-disorders/

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I change my theme yesterday.  I looked at all the themes in the showcase and wanted something versatile.  Simple yet can be used to inspire.  It had it all and my social links were intact (I checked today and gave a sigh of relief).

Although My Journey Through Life was my origins blog.  This one is my present and future.  It became my primary.  I felt guilty leaving mahaleta, but I knew she would always be a part of me.

Yes I work hard to keep up with technology.  I can’t use living off the grid as my excuse for not writing.  The WP app would look at me from my laptop asking for another chance.  When it logged in quicker than before both Ivy the iPhone and I were excited.  I saw it as a sign to not let my hopes get pushed into the pit.

I want to thank you all for the comments and feedback.  I hope to be just warming up my creative juices.

Princess 😊

04/29/17


I was born in 1979 that is the edge of Disco and the verge of Retro. I grew up listening to all kinds of music thanks to my mom the music teacher. I was the rebel listening to Michael Jackson and the Motown artists. I realized that the pop industry made some mean music that made me dance and sing.

In junior high I was discovering the early hip hop and rhythm and blues singers. Dancing to Naughty by Nature’s OPP became an early like. I learned that Meredith Brooks made a girl power anthem that I learned that it went in my mind from taboo to my anthem after my divorce. Then of course there was the bubble gum pop music of boy bands and girls with a beat. Yes, I was dancing along with New Kids on The Block, Insync, Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, and Christiana Aguilera.

One would not expect me to be a country fan. I might not be able to square dance or line dance with the pros, but I was giving my own moves that proved I could do it just as good. I was hooked on Dolly Parton, Faith Hill, Toby Keith, and several others that made me get to my feet.

I soon discovered that I knew more about music than most people would think. I could tell a 50’s hit from an alternative success. I recently realized I had a Little Monster in me thanks to Lady Gaga. I was one of many that music had a profound effect on our lives. Even as I write I am going through a Katy Perry phase and totally loving it. You don’t have to be just like everybody else. Be yourself and love life!

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I brought my WP app back.


I realized how much I missed reading other bloggers.  I missed being able to share posts that I thought other people might like.  Lately the joy of life disappeared and left behind a dark cloud.  That is not me.  Even in tough situations I found a bit of something to smile about.  The thought of not blogging broke my heart.  How can you silence a single voice?  How can you flicker out a flame?  No I can hide and feel the emptiness push the air out of me.  You got to be careful what you say.  Have I done anything wrong, but take care of me?  I realized this week that my heart needed that extra beat again.  I got music added to my music library that gave me hope that things will change.  Yes things seem dismal and I want to cover the blanket over my head.  I look in the faces of people searching for a flicker of life.  If I can’t see it the darkness says see it’s not there.  I have to overcome this and not be swallowed by the dramatic pit.

Sara is returning to the device near you….


Lately I started posting on Facebook publicly so everyone can see it. Why let the loyal friends get the goodies when everyone else can.

Winter in Ethiopia has seen the climate change. Normally we start the rainy season. Now it happens at night and occasionally during the day. Talk about changes. Sorry Mr. Trump, but it is for real. I posted proof of this on Instagram. It is chilly and I am still in Western Hemisphere weather mode.

I am thinking of naming my phone Ivy cause she keeps on climbing no matter her age. I listen to my podcasts including the Anxiety Coach. Talk about soothing I can imagine myself in Hawaii with the warm beaches. I grew up near a beach in Burien that shows I think Puget Sound. Yes the water might be chilly, but as a child the explorer in me loved it. When I was in Arkansas I asked my friends about the sandy beaches. Was it still there? Now I think about the mountains and ferries. There I go letting my imagination run past me.

The best social media sites to find me are Pinterest, Twitter, Facebook, LinkedIn, and Instagram. I go by Molly Sebhat, Mahlet Sebhat, and of course Sara Gamachu. It’s time to be creative people! Spread the love and stomp out the hate!

Joyfully yours,

Sara Gamachu

Sent from Molly’s mobile phone.

I am not a ghost. Just a citizen of real life.


I changed my Gravatar to one of my recent selfies. I know I don’t need to prove anything, but I needed a change. Turning 38 meant that I was not the person I was before this trip. TBH I was a nervous wreck. I had been working hard to get myself back on track.

I just finished going through the spam box on both sides. To the psychic community thank you for the feedback. After feeling like a ghost I decided to show my face. Yes that is the real me without photoshop. Just because I am off the grid doesn’t mean I am down and out. Actually the more I post the more I wave my flag in victory.

By the way kudos to the UK voter for asking the Prime Minister about her rights and needs with her learning disability. You go girl! It is time we represent ourselves with pride. What about us? Are we swept aside for being different or outcasted for our appearance? I don’t think so! Stand up for love and equality. From around the world the people’s voice should be heard.

Thank you all for your patience and keep up the feedback!

Sent from Molly’s mobile phone.