Just getting up is a great thing. Knowing I am accepted is another. Feeling the love is the way I battle my fears. Knowing people are there helps too. I used to imagine people verbally supporting me saying yes you can. Walk those steps and clean those dishes. I do it for me now. Not anyone else.
For the first time I am taking the steps I needed to actually do this. Between learning how to cook and bake things. To going out and talking with people in real life. These are things people do. A few weeks ago I began taking bus rides in my area. I felt so excited and nervous. It was also a milestone because that was how I traveled for many years. Walking and riding the bus in the greater Seattle area.
It has been brought to my attention by various people in my journey in life that I didn’t know how to drive. Well up until recently I was ashamed of that fact. I joke that my father felt that I shouldn’t because it took a lot of concentration to be able to keep my eye on the road and not get into an accident or anything of the sort. So from 12th grade on I practiced the art of taking the bus. It started around the White Center area where we were living when. I learned to memorize the routes and landmarks so I could get to school and home without needing too much help. I was lucky that my school was on a community college site and that one bus when back and forth in my neighborhood. This began my need to get around without asking for a ride. Sure at times I needed help but the thrill of knowing where to go and how to get there was a strong feeling. It got to the point that I was giving people advice on how to get to and from places. Now that is powerful. During my separation and into my divorce part of my life I had to learn from scratch to I could have my son ready to be picked up from our apartment area down to work and back before he got home. I started adding the taxi system at this point because it was a new area and I needed that extra confidence that things would work out.
So even though in some ways I am a little behind the curve… that didn’t mean I couldn’t make up the distance in other ways. Imagine my joy when these smart devices came out. I finally was able to get real-time information at just a click speed. So thus ends this chapter of my training life. Join me next time as we learn how I am getting back on my feet.
Until then take care of yourself so you can take care of others!
For those taking on the challenge. Bon chance!
Okay, so I know that right now quite a lot of folks are trying to write a grand total of fifty thousand words. Some are stuck, while some feel they’re going nowhere. If you’re attempting to write a novel during the month of November, here’s some writing advice:
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